About Me

I was born in Bremen, Germany in 1965. Even as a small child, the Divine was the most real thing in my world. I talked to angels and tree spirits. I saw energies in vivid colours swirling around the room.

To me, this was normal.

But in my family none of this was welcome. I was laughed at, ridiculed, told I had too much imagination. I quickly learned it wasn’t safe to talk about my gifts. For a while, I even developed a stutter because I wasn’t sure what I could and couldn’t say.

Inside myself the connection stayed exactly what it had always been. But on the outside I learned to be “normal”.

In my early 20s, I moved to London for what I thought would be two years. It became 30. I love London.

I worked as a photographer, then built my own language school. From the outside, everything looked successful.

But I was still living a double life. At work, I played the professional businesswoman. At home, I meditated, went to workshops, sought out teachers and guides and healers.

The spiritual life I’d hidden as a child was still my actual life.

In 2016, my relationship of 21 years ended. I was 51. I was devastated. I didn’t know who I was without that life.

I let go of everything, the flat, the business, the life I had built over three decades. I started to come out of the spiritual closet and went travelling. A walking pilgrimage in Japan. Becoming one with nature in New Zealand. Observing wild orangutans in Borneo. Volunteering at a burnout recovery centre in Thailand. Walking meditations with monks. I settled in Bali for a few years.

On that journey, in the jungles and mountains and long silences, I finally started to do the work I’d been avoiding for decades.

I had grown up with a father who had strong narcissistic traits. I’d learned to shrink, to override myself, to stay quiet so I wouldn’t be a threat. By 51, those patterns were still running quietly in the background of every relationship, every decision, every time I let someone else’s opinion matter more than my own.

The shadow work was looking at all of that. Sitting with the rage at how much I’d silenced myself. Noticing the moments I still automatically people-pleased, and choosing differently. Tracing why certain men still triggered the hell out of me back to childhood.

Bit by bit, I came back together. The sensitive child who saw angels. The seeker, the businesswoman, the daughter, the partner. All the parts of me I’d kept separate.

That’s when I understood what the work was.

Both wings: the Divine, who’d been with me all along, and the long, honest work of meeting myself.

After 33 years abroad, I’m back in Germany, in Hamburg.

I’m a certified Energy Life Coach and Activation Life Coach by The Coaching Institute, California.

I’m still a traveller at heart. I still meditate daily. I still engage with my own inner work every day.

This path doesn’t end. It deepens.